Ooookaaaaaay… What am I supposed to do now!!!??? Over 3,000 people read my last post about Brent, in the period of a few days.
I show up at completely random places, and there, at least someone makes eyes at me, giddy and bashful, until she (naturally, its usually a "she") eventually says… Congratulations!!! We are just so happy for you!!!
It takes me off guard for a minute, and I have to mentally talk myself through the cross-over from blog to real life..., It's ok. You're the one who wanted to share this with people. You're the one who posted it on a public blog. Now they're seeing you face to face and this is good. This is exactly what you wanted. For other people to rejoice in something good God has done…
Then, I breathe… smile, and say, Thank you so much! :)
So now I have two options… 1) Go back to writing about grief, Lynn, life, and never mention Brent again or all the personal, "private" details taking place as my life continues to move forward… 2) OR, I give you all the juicy details so you can continue to join in and be a part of the happenings of my life :) Which I love :) and which is why I blog :)
I should clarify, that there are no juicy details to be had so don't get too excited. :)
So which one??? Which would you prefer??
I guess my wrestle is this: So far, I've written to you from the depths of my being. I've shared with you as I would with my deepest and truest friend. I relate to Beth Moore in the way that she pours herself out to women around the world that she has never met, loving them, and caring for them as though she has known and loved them her whole life long… There is so much change happening in my life right now. How do I continue bringing you along for the journey, for those of you who care to join :)?? What are the appropriate boundaries?? How can God be most glorified through my writing, this blog, and in my relationships??
Well, this is me wrapping my head around the whole thing before I keep writing :). Thanks for your patience. Love you all so much :).