The rain is pouring down on my rooftop. The sound is beautiful. rhythmic. mesmerizing. Lynn loved the rain. It soothed him. He was still, tranquil, and romantic when listening to the rain.
It's about that time... This is the time I would be up in bed, waiting for Lynn to get home, knowing that if I wanted to sleep it had to be before he arrived, because otherwise he'd keep me up talking, but also knowing I was too anxious to see him and would undoubtedly stay awake until I heard those sounds... First the car, then the gravel, the car door, then the front steps, the front door... And soon enough he'd be bounding up the steps to our bedroom to see me. Sometimes, I'd pretend to be asleep thinking.. Oh no. He's full of energy tonight. I soooo want sleep!! But he knew :) And I couldn't keep away from him. Soon we'd start talking. His day would start flowing. He'd carry on until I kicked him out. Then, he'd go downstairs to our living room rocking chair and read running articles or food blogs online on his IPad... After an hour or so, if he still couldn't calm his brain down, he'd be back for more. He'd bound into bed, still full of energy, trying to let me sleep but unable to reign in his loving heart. I was after all, his best friend. So he'd share some more, then roll over and snore. Yet, again, I would sigh into his back, roll over to my own sleeping position, and stay up half the night pondering the things he'd shared... Unable to sleep by both the burdens Lynn had shared, the noise of his snoring (sometimes), and... sheer frustration that he'd done it to me again :).
Being married to my best friend was wonderful. We shared everything. We enjoyed every moment of each others company. The adjustment to parenthood and active ministry was hard, but we were determined to raise the standard and make it work. We loved each other.
This is the card I read from him tonight, written November 5, 2001, when we had known each other only two months and were not even dating yet :)
Thanks again for the walk and talk last evening. I appreciated your openness and welcome you to continue that. Thanks also for really relaxing me and calming me down. It's a treasure to have such a close friend with whom I can be completely myself. Thanks for listening to me ramble non-stop. It's nice that you pay attention even when I get boring. You really encouraged me last night, and I hope I can be just as kind to you sometime. God bless you for your Christ-like heart and uncanny sensitivity.
I miss my best friend. I miss hearing about his day and knowing his heart and loving him there. I miss being that listening ear that he relied on so much, even though at times I resented such a responsibility :)
The rain falls. It pounds to the beat of my heart, longing to hear those familiar but distant sounds, even just one more time, and know that he is coming home to me...